past is past

every once in a while I go back to the days when I was a wild single woman. I am still wild but no longer single. Don't get me wrong I love my boyfriend, he is an amazing person and is one of my best friends. But somtimes I think about the roads I didn't travel and what would have become of them. Something tells me I am better where I am..but then why the curiosity?

BACKSTREETS BACK...ALRIGHT!!!

along with that wacky boyband..I am also back. A couple friends brought up the blog to me the other day and I decided I needed some catharic outletting. (Yes I still make up my own vocabulary!)

So I decided to write a bit again..probably won't on a regular basis but enough to satisfy all of you.

as always life has been one crazy scene after another. I am still with my wonderful boyfriend (2 months!) and its been a rollercoaster ride. We have had a few tiffs but all in all its nice to have someone to be there for me. Really be there..not just a booty call. The only downside is my parents..they are none too fond of him because of his past history. This I understand in theory but they haven't given him much of a chance either. In time I suppose.

Also I've been dealing with my VERY mentally unstable brother who is still dealing with his very messy complicated spilt from his girlfriend. There is so many issues there that I think Dr. Phil would have a field day trying just to scratch the surface. Throw in me as the sympathetic and my overbearing mother trying to fix the whole thing and it makes for a very stressful drama.

I'm still toiling away in the festering hell hole that is my job and really..I don't give a fuck anymore. I know that there is no benefit to me to be there so I pretty much do whatever the hell I want. Fire me..fuck I'd throw my own going away party. My bf is begging me to leave because he knows how much I hate it..but I'm just not ready.

I've been kinda holding that attitude with everything lately. I do whatever the fuck I want and if people don't like it..what the hell are they going to do about it?!
most people do nothing..outside of bitch. Which makes me laugh and rage at the same time. They can talk but when it comes to actually putting up they go about thier busness and try to pretend that they had nothing to do with.

I've been sucked into the poker craze thats been sweeping the nation lately, I'm still learning the game. Everyone has their own way to play but I have fun either way. I'm heading off now to go hang out with a friend I haven't seen in a while. Its nice to still connect with people, and have a little space from the bf. It just makes me apperciate him more when I don't see him for a day or two.

ciao all *~badkitty*~