well well well..long time no talk.

hope everyone is doing okay...or surviving in the very least.

Sorry I haven't written in the longest time.. I've been busy and unfortunatly kinda stressed out.

My brother broke up with his fiance and it was killer..I am working on getting them back together because it was one of those break ups where neither wanted to seperate I think they just needed space.

I however became the confidant between the two and it became exhausting. I am also working a lot because my last pay check was horrible. So I'm trying to squeeze in a few more hours. It hasn't proved to go very well because I've gotten so run down that I now have bronchitis.

About the only really good thing going on in my life right now is my boyfriend. He is everything I could ever want. He 's supportive and always wants the best for me. He protects me and he makes me feel like I'm the most beautiful woman in the world. I can't count how many times in a day he calls me sexy. He's got the shortest fuse but with me his patience is endless. The thing I love most about him is his heart. You can see it in him. He just has this big kind heart and his whole tough guy thing is just a cover..don't get me wrong, he is very tough and very strong but he has deeper feelings than a lot of people give him credit for.

I am very very very much in love with him and I'm so excited because I can't see it ending anytime soon. Everytime we go to the mall we look at engagment rings and he tells me to pick out all the ones I like. YAY! I thank God everyday for bringing him into my life and it seems like all the stupid crap I've been through is worth it just to be with someone who makes me so happy.


My parents are comming back tommorrow I do kinda miss them but its been nice just having my life to myself for a change. I think I'm just one of those people who needs to be free and I don't know if they'll ever really understand that.

Time to go change the laundry and have a shower. Then I'm off back to my honeys place to make dinner and maybe go for a walk or something. Spend a little quiet time together.

Take care everyone :) Always and forever BadKitty

hey all!..sorry for anyone who still reads this, I've been totally slacking. Its 1245pm and I think this is the earliest I've been home in weeks. I'm actually going to get sleep today. Spending a lot of time with the boyfriend is one of the reasons I haven't been writing much. He took me out for my birthday on Weds and it was really great. I'm excited for his birthday comming up at the end of April.

He's just such a good person. He's got such a huge heart and he treats me like gold. Always telling me how lucky he is and I'm one of the best things thats happened to him in a long time. I can seriously see us being together for quite a long while. I know he feels the same way too and that he's not going to change his mind...

My parents are going away this week and it sucks because I'm allowed to have nobody over..which as some of you know hasn't stopped me before..the downside is that my brother has been inlisted to babysit..(yeah my parents drive me nucking futs sometimes.) so if I get caught..I could get booted. So I'm not even gonna try.

But I am sitting here falling asleep as I type..so even though I know I'll wake up at like 9am..I need to rest now. laterz.

What an amazing birthday!

My mom baked me pies..two of them..cherry and blueberry!

My sweet wonderful amazing boyfriend then took me to dinner and we went with 2 other friends of mine( who gave me some joints for my birthday..score!) and then he got us a nice hotel room. We weren't planning on sleeping together but we just felt like it was right...and boy was it ever!

He's so amazing..I can't believe I'm this lucky..I really can't. Its so wild because he talks about me like I'm the best thing to ever happen to him. He actually proposed to me..to which I replied..yes..but not for a long while. :P I said I wouldn't let him be unmarried at 30..so that gives us 4 years lol.

In the mean time..we basically balance each other..I keep him from going crazy on people and he keeps me from going crazy because of people..lol.

We are finding him an apartment next so that he can live here in town..so we don't have to worry about the commute and we can actually spend time alone together without having to shell out a 100$ a night.

anyway..I gotta go get some sleep and then get up and do some errands.

well rock on everyone! hope yall have a good one!

Hello all!! Its been a few days and your probably all dying to know what I've been up to..lol..yeah cuz I'm just that damn exciting!

Well,I've been awake a lot haha! I actually plan on sleeping all day to catch up. I've been spending way too much time getting high..its been a total blast though. Also I've been spending my precious time with a certain previously mentioned princess.

He finally asked me to be his girlfriend at the intense prodding of like..everyone! lol. It was funny because he is this huge tough guy and he was so deathly afraid to ask me out because he is afraid of being rejected. Like I would ever turn him down. He's so damn cool! Everyone is calling us the honeymooners because we are so mushy. Its also really great because we both said right off the bat that we aren't going to be sleeping together for a while so that we can actually get to know each other and be good with each other. Its not going to be easy but its something thats really important.

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Anyway...I'm listening to a song my ex sent me by Eminem and its called "I love you more" and wow..it really fits our relationship..it wasn't quite as bad but just how we both went through a lot with each other and there was a lot of angry times but we still went back to each other despite it. I think we are both at a point in our lives now though that we realize that we have to find our own happinesses..and quit falling back on each other. Don't get me wrong, I still have a lot of deep feelings and I always will for him. He has a big piece of my heart and he made me change a lot of things in my life and he will always be a part of me..and I know he feels the same way. Still, there are different kinds of love and the one we were looking for was just not in each other.
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Well..enough introspective babbling for one day! hmm...my boyfriend is so sexy..lol. Time for a shower and bed...I've got some serious sleeping to do!

everyone have a good day/night..whatever! ciao~

I'm in love with mary jane

fucking rights doggy! I'm sitting here eating like these chocolate egg things and ddrinking my orange juice and I'm just fucked. I could really go for a cheese burger and like..some ice. lol. Okay fuck. I have to go get more food.