Hello bloggerinos.

The quest to figure my shit out hasn't been going so well..I guess its my procrastination mentality that keeps me from "finding" the time to sit and think. That and I'm pretty much exhausted from chasing after a very active little monster lol...yeah that cute kid up there.

I've decided that as far as my ex fiance goes, I'm done taking the high road and pretending that what he does and did isn't bothering me. It is and yes I can admit it here..*although not aloud quite yet* That yes, I hate him. I despise him every minute of everyday that passes that he misses seeing one of the only good things he ever did in his life. Some people might say that not being able to forgive him or let it go makes me a bad person but I don't really give a fuck. I'm also done playing his little game that he thinks that if he keeps telling me how much he cares that I won't take him to court. Its just as much his responsibilty and he's gotten out of things his whole life...not this time.

Okay enough bitterness..

Cash is surprising me more and more everyday. We had to drop his crib to the bottom rung because he has learned how to stand up. Its so amazing to see this little human doing all these things we normally take for granted. He's also working on forming new sounds. I'm thinking his first word is probably bottle because he always seems to say BABABABA! when he's hungry. I'm still holding out for MaMa though.

Does anyone else find it absurd that the second halloween is over they start playing X-mas music!? It seems like retailers just want to cram the holiday spirit so far down your throat that we are all shitting yuletide (sp?) *Is that a piece of tinsel??? hahah*


Thanks to everyone who's shown me some love on here, I've said it before and I'll say it again...I've never personally met some of you but sometimes I feel like I would trust you more than some of the people I actually know. Your all a bunch of very cool cats. For those of you that I do know and love me...I love you back times eleventy billion :) Even if you refuse to sleep with me...LOL *ya know you waaaannnnt it!*

What else can I say right now? I'm neither unhappy,nor overly happy so I guess at the moment things are alright.

OH...I went to SAW3 the other day *which would have been better if the person I saw it with wasn't being a complete pms'y bitch that day..but anywho* It was alright, I wasn't down with the very end but the rest of the movie cleaned up nicely. I don't want to ruin the movie for anyone that hasn't seen it but I will say that I'm not going to ever become a brain surgeon *yucky* lol.

I would also like to add that Britney and K-fed are finally getting a divorce *WHAT?! SHOCKER!!!* not really. Good for Britney, bitch was hot before that no good scrub fell into her life. I can relate though. Her relationship with him was just like me and my ex..except I don't have millions of dollars, a singing career,or fake tits...everything else though...to a T.

Well I'm not going to make any promises but I am going to try and make a few regular blogs. Hopefully they won't be so freaking emo!

Peace out kids...