How come girls and girl related products smell so nice?

Well Dave I'm glad you asked! You see, when a teenager enters puberty you start to develop things like body odor and...

Okay clearly this is not the answer you were really looking for.

Honestly its 60% clever,clever marketing and 40% girls just like to smell nice. Yeah I know theres a lot of it to do with hormones and olifactory gland thingies and primal attraction. For instantce, smelling attractive makes you seem more attractive..like beer googles..only in your nose. Plus it makes the individual feel better too *ohhh I just loooove strawberries, I wish I could smell like one too!!*

Its one of my favorite parts of being a girl, getting to try all the good smelling lip,hair,body ect.. stuff that they have out now. Mind you its not just a girls market anymore..theres a shwack of stuff out there for men now. Body scrubs,washes,colonges are becomming staples in male showers *thanks to those "meterosexual" guys* I prefer men that aren't high matience but smelling nice is always good. I said smelling, not bathing in colonge...there is a distinction.

I could really go on about this but I'm a little tired. So I don't think I'll really explore it that much further. I've been told that I smell nice and thats good enough for me.

Now I just have to find someone to get over here, lean in and..smell the roses..heheh :)

Sometimes I just feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I've got so much on my mind when really I would just like to throw out my brain and use my skull as a punch bowl. I don't know why, I just think it would be kinda cool "Punch anyone? Its grape!" Er..yeah.

Seriously though I'm so frustrated right now because I feel like I'm at a stand still with some things and they really aren't all my issues but at the same time I feel compelled to care about them. I think its because some people figure I'm persuasive and I have a way of making things how they are supposed to be. Only problem is I know what things are and aren't beyond my control and I know how me doing my thing will affect it one way or the other. Its hard to lay low and wait but its all part of the hunt.

On the lighter side, I did get a new lipstick today :) Its about the same shade as this font and it smells like raspberry juice crystals. I was also reading a very humorous and cool book at Superstore something like A Cougars guide to life... It was actually full of some good advice for women in general, not just cougars. I'm not gonna post any of it though, can't have the men wise to our game can we ladies? ;)

Anyways, I'm tired and I need my sleep. I busted out my satin jammies (Soooo comfy) so hi ho hi ho its off to bed I go!

My ex fiance has contacted me again. Seriously I don't know what he wants me to do. Theres so much I want to say that I feel like I should have the chance to get out but then part of me doesn't even care anymore. I don't love him and I sure as hell don't want to be with him but I feel like he should know that I'm still surviving and so is his son and we are doing fine.

Fuck Fuck Fuck...I did not need this shit.

Greetings from my little corner of the world.

So I was feeling alright today until I had a seafood salad for lunch.. and yeah last hour or so..not so good. I'm starting to think that maybe it wasn't such a good idea.

I got a little depressed last night and I was kinda upset..okay I cried for like one minute..but as I usually do I stopped because crying is for sissys. Seriously, I know a lot of people disagree but I see crying as a sign of weakness in myself. I don't like when other people cry either. Don't get me wrong I'm not a jerk about it, I think I'm rather protective and sensitive when my friends cry but it makes me feel weird anyway.
I suppose i'm just feeling sorry for myself because I get lonely on occasion and I wish I had someone to share things with and *do things* with but on the other hand I'm so not even thinking about a serious relationship. So I've kinda worked myself into a nice little corner.

Meh! Fuck it, what can ya do right??

oh..I thinks I hear a little squack box..

Celebrity news for July 22/06

Still haven't seen Tom Cruises kid yet, this could be the biggest thing since Rosewell...Hmm there are too many parallels to count on that one.

Sources say that Tori Spelling *see famous dead father* is expecting. Hurry and have that baby while its still trendy Tor...

Paris *walking STI* Hilton has delayed her album release yet again, Paris honey, why delay the inevitable? We all know its gonna suck its not like its going apperciate in value the longer it sits.

David "The Hoff" Hasselhoff wants to create a musical based on his life, it will also contain bits about his Nightrider and Baywatch days. Somebody please shoot this guy already. There's funny and then there's just sad. I haven't seen a hass *snicker* been look this bad since...well ever. I think that all the washed up celebs should just do a massive concert and then commit a group koolaid hari kari together. *cher would be down for it, I know she would!*

Thats the celeb news.

NO WAY!!!

I realize in most cases that the valley girl exclaimation that I used above is usually a tad dramatic..but I think it applys to my story, plus I am a little about the drama..if you haven't picked up on that by now ;) *who me?* yeah,yeah but it keeps life exciting no?

Anyway, I was at LaSenza looking for a new bra today because its one of the few places that I can actually find the size I'm looking for and it won't look like a granny bra. I selected a few cute choices to take with me to the dressing room and got busy finding the best fit.

The dressing rooms at LaSenza are open at the top and I usually don't worry because there aren't usually that many tall enough people to really be peeping. Minor detail, there is an exit sign right outside the door to the change room I'm in.

Well turns out that the light in the exit sign happens to be burnt out and at the particular moment I happen to be shirtless...and braless I hear some guys saying "That light there?" and one of the store bimbos going "Yup" and I hear the sound of a ladder being erected. before I know it I've got my one arm across my chest trying to cover it and the other hand trying to find my shirt! Suddenly the guy on the ladder figures out that you can infact see into the dressing rooms *he was really hot too!!* and kinda goes "OH shit!" turns away and goes back down. I get dressed and momentarily debate if I should come out or just wait and pray they all go away. I sucked it up and came out. Mainly because I can't stand in the dressing room all day and it could have been worse I suppose, I wasn't completely naked. Plus I have it on good authority that its not a breast unless you see the nipple anyway LOL.

Also, he was hot....I know I mentioned that already but really, if a complete stranger is going to see me in a state of undress, it helps that he's cute.

So I came out and both of the workers are both just kinda standing there and I think he looked more embarassed than I was and just kinda gave me a little "sorry" kinda look. I just smiled and went and bought my bra and politely told the bimbo that they might want to wait until they are done fixing the sign before putting anymore people in the change room. I think she figured it out.

jealousy is such an ugly thing, not that I care because I'm still getting what I want.

NOT FOR CHILDREN!!!

Well, if any of you hate Anna Nicole Smith as much as I do but love the fact that the crazy bimbo is so entertaining..try this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?search=slutty+smurf&v=Z1KfDFfckc4

It sullys everything good and pure about the smurfs too!!!

It is extremly funny but also very crass so if your not into that kind of thing..ya might not wanna watch okie?

I was debating not writing my blog anymore.. The reason I started this blog was because I was an anonymous person writing about the intimate details of my life. It was mostly for me,to see my thoughts and feelings in print. It was a way for me to sit and get it all out and then disect it and break it down and make sense of the whole sorrid mess that at some times was my life.

In the past I was the type of person that was an open book. I wasn't an emotional mess but if you wanted to know how I was feeling you usually didn't have to ask. I didn't have many secrets and I didn't think that writing about my life was all that interesting to anyone but myself. So I plodded along writing about what it was like being a single carefree chick. I wrote about the guy(s) *hehe* I was seeing/sleeping with, the drama of them, my work and my friends. It read a lot like a sex and the city type thing.

People however, have this funny way of changing and evolving. I don't want to say "growing up" because I'm not sure if I was ever a normal child or if I will ever grow up into being a normal adult. Anyways, My life became a lot more personal and I realized that my relationships were becomming a lot more intimate. Not just sexually but emotionally. Sometimes those things are the hardest to write about.

Also over the years I have learned some very,very hard lessons about the price of intimacy. I have had to change my perspectives and therefore my writing.

I no longer see my life as an open book but as a poker game. I guess the old addage of "keeping your cards close to your vest" is what I try to go by. Sometimes I still go all in, others I fold and sometimes I bluff just to see where it will get me. You never want to give up everything.

I have secrets about my relationships with certain people that I don't think will ever come past my lips. Maybe someday when I meet the person I am destined to be with, if that day ever comes..I will lay down all my cards and just go for broke. I only hope that they would stay in the game after learning about the hands I've been dealt and the ones I've played.

SO, if you've managed to read this far you are probably wondering "What about the blog then?"

I think I may continue it but I don't think I will be writing much about my personal life. I will continue to write about my kid, things I think are funny,bitch about news..or whatever I might be bitching about...ect. As far as who I'm screwing *or not screwing for that matter* who I love or don't love or any of that stuff..well I think thats done for a while. Although I will probably continue to write about my sexy dream encounters about me and my celebrity bitches :) don't worry I'll try and spare the graphic details....

If you all wanna keep reading thats cool, I like reading a lot of the people's blogs who read mine. Mostly because they have far more interesting lives lol :P I also do value the nice comments and I have been really happy that I have managed to make connections through this blog to people that I consider my friends.

There it is everyone. The blog shall live on..for now ;)

inncommunicado.

I feel really uncomfortable trying to convey any of my inner workings at the moment. Maybe not uncomfortable so much as reluctant as I can't understand what purpose it would serve or has ever served, aside from my own self indulgence.

I guess I shouldn't have bothered to do my hair tonight, cuz you can't just put a coat of paint on an old piece of junk and sell it as new.

If your not sorry then don't say you are. you said you didn't care anyway so if its not breaking your heart, why should it be breaking mine? Would it make a difference if I chose to cry about it? if you want the honest truth I usually do. That isn't said to illicit pity either. I just cry.

Sure I love you but if you don't love me back or you can't or its not the way you "think" I want then its irrelevant isn't it? I can make my peace with that.

I don't have the energy to hold things against people. I might be a bitch but I'm a free bitch. I think my hair looks pretty after all.

I think my blogging is just getting bizzare because its more censored than an fcc convention. If you want the dirt...just go a head and ask me.

if anyone wants to email me and doesn't have my address let me know and I'll send it. otherwise, you've been a wonderful audience and I'm glad to have brought the children so much joy.

Kris does the news...and the news enjoyed it.

This weekend in the news our cool guy of the week award goes to Mr.T

It has been reported Mr.T has been said to have "shed" the gold chains that have long been apart of his image. T decided that after having witnessed the destruction of hurricane Katrina and spending time with victims in the big easy that it would be disrespectful to his God to showcase his wealth while being around people who had lost so much.

Everyone say it with me now...AWWW!!! You sir really do belong on the "A team!"

Moving on to the "Who gives a Fuck?!" catagory I am sad to say that following reports of more bombings in foreign countries and the importance of the G8 summit which is currently going on in Russia, the 3rd most important headline of the day is the weekend wedding of Avril Lavinge and Derrik Whibley. WTF? Excuse me but why the hell is this making national news? Ohh right because they are Canadian. No mind to the fact that they didn't even get hitched in Canada... yeah thats fantastic. There was more detail about their nuptuals than the current war situation in the East. I guess they want to report about the wedding now because they know the war is still going to be going in six months.

I hear that they were still debating on where to spend the honeymoon and Avril had her sights set on Paris, Whibley declined stating that including him everyone has already "done" Paris ;) * the Sum 41 frontman dated the bicycle heiress before he hooked up with Lavinge.*

Our last item of the day is the weather: "Today looks warm and sunny with a possible chance of rain but probably not". "Its most likely going to be warm with temperatures in the high 20's possibly even 30's but you never really know." "Mother nature is funny that way isn't she folks?" So remember, wear sunscreen and a hat but bring a jacket just in case and if it does rain please remember we just report the weather we don't make it!" "Have a nice weekend everyone!"

Happy 200th post to me. Of course this is the 200th post of the new blog..the old blog was written eons ago and I would probably have around 5oo posts had I kept all of them.

I'm in a mood... A little stressed out, my boy was having trouble getting settled for bed and decided to scream and scream for about 15 minutes before passing out. I get really agitated when he does that because I feel like its my fault he's doing it and I just want to make it stop. He's totally okay now but I'm still edgy. Plus I know I have to work tomorrow which shouldn't stress me because I actually like my job but I'm just like that sometimes.

A big nutjob....

There are other things I'm totally tweaked about but there is nothing I can do about them and so I absolutely refuse to give them anymore serious thought.

I'm also going to write some more crappy poetry. Cuz I can. I guess its not really poetry..just free flowing brain stuff lol.

There was a moment last night
that I wished for the comfort of your lips
on my skin the feeling of your finger tips
I longed to break down just a little and let it out

I can't let go, not now
you can't affect me this way
I won't whisper what I'm dying to say.

There is more to passions fire
than just a physical fuel
my feelings I can't share with you
silence is a such golden rule.

God I wish I could say it
I wish I could make it matter now
If I could figure out a way
to do that somehow.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
to: D.

Sometimes I feel as though
I sleep in dirt
constantly fighting off
too many kinds of hurt.

A pillow stained with too many tears
a heart thats hardened
broken by far too many years

Screams claw at my lips
trying to escape
I'd bite off my tounge
just to stop them for a day

I hate you deeply
more than you could understand
A wolf in sheeps clothing
a coward parading as a man

please don't ever come back
I can't bear to see your face
The void of you has been filled
with cement taking your place

I'm not going to hurt myself
to try and bleed your pain
I'm done with loosing out
I've only strength to gain.

I was having really messed up dreams last night and decided to look them up in my online dream dictionary today and it was very interesting. Basically it said that I am curious and full of passion and I should follow my intuition and desires. Wow..now to just get everyone else to play along LOL!!

Actually I don't know its probably better I'm at home right now..I have to work tommorrow and if I went out tonight I would be way too tempted to get a little wreckless. Best to wait until I don't have to get up so early :)

well hope everyone has a good weekend! If your going out..have one for me! *drink,guy whatever...lol*

Things are going all right I suppose..haven't blogged much because not much has really happened lol.

Uninspired. Very.

Cash's teeth are becomming more visable on the bottom and they don't seem to be bothering him now that they are through the skin. Although he is drooling buckets!!!

I found out that a good friend of mine is engaged which is so awesome. He is one of those genuinly good people that you almost want to hate cuz they are so damn sweet, but you can't cuz they are so damn sweet lol~ anyway I'm thrilled for him and I should get a hold of him soon to pass on the well wishes.

Its windier than heck here today...I'm pretty sure I saw a cow fly by :P

See..nothing really exciting. Not that I can write about anyway ;)

Einstein was a whore!

I saw a head line on www.msn.com that letters were found detailing times that the 'Stine spent with up to six different women..while he was married!!!

Working late trying to figure out relativity or was it ANATOMY!!

Mind you this was during the duration of his second marrige..to his cousin!!!! oh yeah, I'm dead serious.

Icky,icky....ICKY!

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Another exhausting day finished. Baby had another really good day. I made marinated pork shish ka bobs for supper and they were awesome.

But I'm tired as all get out and I'm starting to get wound up.. I have an anxiety/panic issues *thanks genetics!!!* and if I get over tired I'm just going to get all stressed and bitchy tomorrow. I kinda still wish I had my atavans *strong relaxy sleepy pills* but if I have to wake up suddenly for my kid..yeah I'd be screwed.

Anywho..night night. sleep tight, yada yada yada ;)

pretty sure I should be medicated but...

Ya ever have one of those sex dreams about a famous person and then the next day you see a picture of them and you go "Hey how you doing? Don't act like you don't remember last night *big grin* Yeeeah you know you do."

Alright..so, just me then?

7 deadly sins and a little complaining throw in.

This is gonna be a long, long post...long. you were warned.

First of all I would like to address the fact that my basement stinks. I have repeatedly asked my parents to light a damn candle or something but they don't seem to take the hint. I think I'm going to just go around and fabreeze everything. I like basements and all but I like my space to smell nice. Is it too much to ask to put out a dish of some fucking potpourri?

Second of all when the hell did my social life just wither up and die? Yes I am a mom and yes I still have somewhat of a life, I work,shop,go for coffee,cook ect. But nobody goes out anymore. Most of my friends work later nights or I work on the days they have off which really sucks. I need to get out..not just go to Walmart for an hour either. I would love to actually do myself up a bit and maybe see a movie..in a theater *gasp!* or go to dinner in a restaurant that doesn't ask "Would you like to supersize that?" I don't need to have intelligent conversation, witty banter or a burping contest I just want to get away from my family for a few hours and not have to be stressing about a poopy diaper or a feeding.

But that would have to involve me knowing people that might be available to go out to said places. Also having money is an issue mostly because I don't have any lol.

My other issue is that I am feeling muy *that's very* unattractive lately. Its going to sound silly but I think its because I'm under a different kind of stress. When I was with my ex the weight practically fell off *even when I was preg which is not good* but now that he's not in my life at the moment I've packed it back on. I think its because eating is how I deal with having my son 24/7. Its about the only thing I have any control over anymore. Eating the one thing that specifically belongs to me. I don't have to think about anyone or anything else when I eat.

*Sigh* I am guilty of the sin of Gluttony. Oh and lust. Which goes back in a round about way to not feeling sexy. I mean Is it horny in here or is it just me? If anyone else has the following problem I would like to know but it seems like every now and then I am inexplicably randy. I mean I wouldn't go out and throw it at the first guy who offered but I definitely would make it worth someone's while.

I suppose its even harder to deal with because I don't have a lot of "alone" time if you catch my drift. If you don't than your obviously lying to yourself about the fact that you have rubbed one out. But yeah the only time I get to myself is when I'm sleeping *not really cuz the kid sleeps in my room* so its in the bathtub. The sad thing is, its become a basic function rather than any kind of pleasure. To be honest I would rather just have a shot of tequila and call it a day.

Hmm sounds like I'm also guilty of wrath too. Sometimes I get so frustrated *not always like that* but just twisted over stuff that I just want to punch someone's face in. Could I? uhmm probably not. Mostly cuz I'm weak like a kitten but because I couldn't really justify walking up to someone and punching them in the face. ( not without a proper introduction at least).

Well since I'm on a roll I might as well continue on to Envy. I envy the people that still have their freedom. Going back to the wrath for a moment I hate when they complain about it "Ohh I'm so busy and I have no time to do what I want anymore" but yet they still go to movies and go to the bars and can party till 3 am if they want to. Its like "You know what man? Suck it the fuck up" Yeah I know that there are people out there that have it waaay worse than I do. I'm very fortunate to have my parents helping out with my kid but some people don't know when to count their blessings. I was talkin to a friend of mine from Sask the other day and her son goes back and forth between her and the father so that they can have every couple other weeks off. I don't have that option. So don't whine to me that its your "week" to look after your kid and your missing a great party. Fuck the fuck off.

Okay that puts me at: Wrath,envy,gluttony,lust..what else am I missing.. oh yeah, pride,sloth and greed.

Pride? LOL I have none. Absolutely none. actually thats a lie..wow I'm doing so good at this :P I guess being overly proud of my son could be a sin.. nah..he really is the smartest coolest kid in the world, no make that universe. See what I mean?

Greed, I think when applying to me it ties in with lust. I like having my way with men I fancy and I like having it often. I suppose thats very greedy and while usually warmly receipted in most cases ultimately destructive. I won't get into how. I had a boyfriend once who knowing that sex had been on my mind ALL day tried to be funny and refuse me. Needless to say I got laid that night and he learned never to cross me again. Yeah I realize that he still got sex out of the deal and he may never admit it but I think he was surprised to find out that women can be just as aggressive about getting what they want as men can.

Lastly..sloth. This really is one of the only sins I can say that I don't honestly do a lot of. When you have a little person dependent on your for its survival..well you can kiss goodbye sleeping in and being unproductive. Although sometimes my son and I like to lay on the floor together and watch t.v. He likes Simpsons so that usually makes for some good quality time.

There you have it. Another completely self indulgent post for you all to read. Enjoy Bitches! :)

Its offical!!! My son is reaching a very important milestone in his life!

I can see the tops of his two bottom teeth emerging from his gums. I'm so proud yet..miserable LOL! Teething for those of you not in the baby "know" is a real bitch! Think about how you would feel now if teeth decided to cut through your gums and take up residence. Yeah not so pleasant. To add insult to injury he had to get his second round of vaccinations today. He only cried for about 30 seconds but they do make him feel a little crappish, thank goodness for infant tylenol. *White grape flavored not Cherry* *the red dyes seem to upset little tummies*

I love that word..tummy :) I still say it. I'm such a loser lol!

Anyway I have to work tomorrow :( 10:30 to 6:00 *its gonna feel like forever!* So I'm going to bed now just in case he has a bad night.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIKI!!!!

May all your A's be in school and your F's be in bed. :) Party like its..er.. 1999 again.

Also happy 4th of July. To all my Americana's down there..hehe I said "down there".

Catch up...

I know there has been a serious lack of posting lately.. For everyone. I think its the summer weather. Everyone wants to get out and enjoy the sun and just get active.

Its seems like suddenly I'm so busy, now that my son is getting used to going out and adjusting to crowds I'm really trying to get him out more each day. For both of us! lol.

I've also been slacking off on the posts because I've been sorting through a lot of personal stuff. Usually my M.O. for dealing with my "feelings" is just not. Kind of burying them and forgetting about them. On the surface at least. The problem is, sometime or another they have to be dealt with. Its confusing because everday I feel a little bit better and a little bit stronger but then sometimes I feel a little bit crazier,angrier and a little more out of control.

Yes, a lot of it is because of my ex-fiance. I know it wouldn't make a difference to actually tell him how I really feel and what I really think about him because some people just reach a point where they are so far gone that there is only one path left for them to walk. In my heart I feel he is like that. Everyones day of judgement will come, some just come sooner than others. Sadly when it does, I don't think his will be good.

SO one part of me wants to hate him but in my heart I really just feel sad for him. He will never know the joy I know. He will never learn all the things this life has to offer. I don't believe in Hell as per say, but I think that everyone suffers at the hands of their earthly mistakes. You can either admit to the pain you have caused and forgive the pain your caused or you just continue to suffer and suffer.

OKAY!!! enough of my babble.


I was hungry so I had to take a break to get some lunch..hmm tuna! Best fish in a can ever...

Its also laundry day, other wise known as tee-shirt and boxers day because thats all I have left lol! No matter though, the shorts work out nicely in the 30 degree plus heat. They also have Homer Simpson on them...yeah sexy, I know!!! :P I have to take my son for his second round of shots today and I am sooooo not looking forward to that! I hate it when he cries, I just feel so bad for him! I wish I could get them instead. I have no problems with needles. I've had so fricken many of them. Sadly none of them were tattoo related..someday soon though!!!!!!

Well I hear him crying so I gotta run... well not run, I've been having a hard time taking off the baby weight *damn you caramel drumsticks!!!* so I don't really run. Okay..its not that bad but I need to get in some kind of shape *round is a shape* if I want to take him swimming this summer.

Peace out. K!

Happy Canada Day!!! Song of the day:No diggity-blackstreet.



The diss of the day award goes to... London Drugs.

Seriously, on Canada Day you have only 2 (out of 4) tills open and one of them is located right by one of the main entrance/exits. Therefore you not only have the people waiting in line but also the incomming and out going traffic. Can you say crowded! Duh!

I am disapointed that I haven't seen more people wearing red..I was this morning but due to some oh so classy baby spit up I had to change lol. Well if I make it out to the fire works tonight I may have to wear a red sweat shirt or something.

I am also wearing my underoo's with the smiling maple leaves on them. Swanky no?